Showing posts with label bisexual. Show all posts
Showing posts with label bisexual. Show all posts

Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Late Breaking Gay at Bunche Beach


Bunche Beach, John Morris Road, San Carlos Bay, Ft. Myers, Florida


Maurice was nervous. He had never been to a gay beach before. But he had exactly 2 hours while his wife and kids were at the movies and they thought he was lying down with a headache.  He guessed he should feel guilty but instead it was just nervous. 

He had been preparing for this for weeks.  His dark brown pubes were trimmed and his sizable balls were shaved.  In addition to his Florida tan he had been tanning at a salon to minimize any lines.

To complete the look he had purchased a “tan through” swim suit.  The tiny suit’s high legs and the pattern of gold, tan, yellow and green palm leaves drew the eye to his prominent package.  The not so subtle design
also hid the fact that you could actually see through the sheer knit material.  To hide the swim suit until he got to the beach he had put on a loose pair of gym shorts and a tank top.  But that didn’t hide his broad shoulders, narrow hips, round firm ass, or his strong legs.  He knew he looked good but he didn’t want to look too “gay.” At least not until he was ready.

When he arrived he parked along the street and then began the walk to the beach.  It was then that he went from nervous to something near to sheer terror.

He thought “This was just plain goofy. What if someone he knew saw him?”  There were lots of people on the beach and he knew that he would have to walk something like a half-mile to find the "gay beach".  He had put on a “Cubs” ball cap and dark sunglasses but at six foot three and 205 lbs. he was not exactly invisible.  None the less, he had come this far and wanted this that badly.  He wasn’t going to turn around now.

He clutched his beach towel and his little cooler that contained three beers, suntan lotion, four rubbers and a small bottle of lube, and trudged off down the sidewalk towards the shore.

When he got to the narrow beach he turned left.  By some unwritten concession the gays had conceded the best part of the beach to the straights and the families.  To the left the beach became narrower and he could see rocks in the water that with the current would make the water dangerous for swimming.   He was relieved to quickly leave behind all the happy little families playing and sunning and in less than five minutes into his walk the crowd had thinned out. 
Under other circumstances he might have brought his wife and boys down here to enjoy the beach.  But now this time was his.  He had given more than enough to his family. 
As he moved southeast there was a tree that had fallen across the narrow beach so that he had to wade into the water to get around and beyond it.  As he picked his way past the tree he was afraid that he was in the wrong place.  But there, just a hundred yards away he saw several men on beach towels.
Just men!
Men in Speedo's!
Hot men!
Men with dark tans!
Men who looked up as Maurice came down the narrow beach.

Maurice was too nervous to get too close, so while still 20 feet away from the nearest person he spread out his towel and sat down.  He sat for a moment then realized he is was still in his shorts and tank top.  That wasn't exatly the image of himself that he had imagined on a gay beach.  So without lifting his butt more than an inch off of the beach towel he squirmed out of his shorts and shirt.
Now what?

It wasn't that he hadn't thought about it. Hell that's all you thought about for the last four days. In fact the idea of going somewhere where he could meet gay men was an all-consuming idea that nagged at him more and more every day.  The older he got the more he knew he had to make it happen.  And he knew it had to happen soon.
His mouth was dry with anticipation so he dug out a beer and chugged it down.
Nothing was happening.  Would someone come up to him?  He got out the suntan lotion and slathered it on.  This only served to make him hornier - if that was possible.  As his hands spread the oil over his skin his dick began to swell within the confines of the tiny bikini.

This was crazy.  What if someone saw that he was getting hard?  Hell – what if they didn’t?  That was why he was here wasn’t it? 
He wanted to reach beneath the waist band of his suit and smear the lotion on his cock and balls but knew that he would get rock hard if he did.  None-the-less he looked around to make sure no one was watching and lifted the edge of his suit to look at his cock.  The sheer fabric cast a spotty shade on his swelling member.  As he watched he could see it twitch and throb and shift and grow.  Damn!  He had to stop or get up and get in the water or do something.

There was no time to just sit there. He was either going to be rejected completely and feel like a fool or have the time of his life but he wasn't going to just sit there on the towel.

He got up and moved towards the other men. He was very aware of himself.  He felt virtually naked. And in fact he was virtually was.  Certainly the tiny swim suit was keeping him legal but the fact that it covered such a small percentage of his tall, lean frame made it more of a focal point rather than a cover-up.  Maurice’s balls were barely captured by the straining fabric and his 8 inch cock was pointing firmly up and to the left and its head was pulling the waist band away from his flat belly. His broad shoulders, firm pecks and flat belly now formed a V that pointed down to his swollen package.  Despite how he knew he looked in the mirror he now worried that his salt-and-pepper hair made him look older.

He walked past four or five men lying in the sun. Most of them wore Speedo's. Everyone was covered in oil. Everyone had a dark tan and everyone was beautiful.

Maurice may not have realized it but their heads swiveled and their eyes, hidden by sunglasses, tracked the newest addition to the group.

As Maurice passed the men lying on their beach towels he saw ahead a group of four or five men standing together smoking cigaretts and talking.

This was it, he would walk up to them and endure their ridicule and scorn or perhaps, just maybe, something else.  Something wonderful!  He had to do it.  He didn’t know what to say to them.  They would know he was an idiot and out of his realm.  But it was now or never.  Even if he nothing happened he felt amazing.  Nervous but amazing.  Even if no one else thought that he was sexy – he did.  And that was very hot to him.  So steeling himself against rejection he walked up to them.

As he approached the group stopped talking to blatantly check him out from head to toe with a long pause to simply stare at his package.

Maurice didn't know what to say. Anything would be stupid. Should he just say “Hello”or maybe  “Nice day”or maybe “This is a real nice part the beach” (it wasn't.) Instead much to Maurice's relief someone in the group said hello to him.  Maurice’s mouth was dry again but he managed to blurt out an awkward “Hello.” in return.

And then the one who had said hello said “I like your swimsuit.”

That made his cock jump. He had been afraid that he might not even be able to get it up.  But as the one who said he liked his swimsuit came closer he could feel his cock swell.
His new friend moved closer.  He was shorter than Maurice with short dark hair and a pearly white smile.  His smooth darkly tanned skin was stretched over well-defined muscles.  As he move forward he came so close that Maurice could smell the coconut in the oil that shone on his dark skin.  As soon as he came close enough to touch him he reached out and touched the narrow band of fabric on Maurice’s hip.

His hand stayed on his hip as he lifted his head to look up at Maurice and said “Looks good on you.”

Time seemed to slow to almost a stop for Maurice.  It all seemed amazingly exotic and yet somehow so natural.  Maurice managed to squeak out in a half voice “It's a tan-through.”  As Maurice said this he put his hand down to pull the waistband away from his belly and run his fingertips under the material so that his newfound friend could see how sheer the material was.  His new friend leaned forward to get a peek down inside.

There was a lot to see inside. Maurice’s dick was now suddenly fully erect and as he tugged the waist band the head of his now throbbing cock peaked out over the top.  In a smooth motion his friend slid his hand over the outside of the suit from Maurice’s hip down to cup his now rigid member.

His friend leaned in and said "I’m Joe.  Let me show you some other things that are pretty neat here on the beach."

And with that Joe put one hand on the small of Maurice's back and began to guide him up into the woods.

They moved only a few yards into the woods where they were just out of sight from anyone who might be walking the beach.

Joe turned towards Maurice, pushed him gently against a tree and pulling his swim suit's waist band away from his body to allow the now dripping member to jump out toward Joe.

For a moment Maurice’s cock simply throbbed as it waved and pointed up at Joe.  Joe stood holding the waistband out staring down but saying nothing.

Finally Joe said “God damn – that’s nice!”  Then Joe knelt.  As he moved to his knees he pulled Maurice’s suit down to his ankles with his left hand and took Marice's throbbing and swollen cock in his right.  He stared for only moment and then gently began to bring his lips to the head.

Maurice couldn’t move.  He looked down to watch but it was what he felt that filled his universe.  Everything in him was now focused on cock.  Joe’s wet lips moving over the head of his cock.  His hot tongue searched the edges and stroked and gently probed Maurice's piss hole.  Then like a deep wet tunnel he felt Joe's hungry mouth move down his shaft.  Maurice had to move one hand back to the tree trunk to steady himself but he took his other hand to press Joe’s head gently deeper down on his shaft.

Hungrily with quiet slurping sounds Joe moved in and out, but each time moving further down the hard veined rod of throbbing flesh.

Finally Joe’s nose and lips were pounding into Maurice’s pubs and belly and the head of Maurice’s cock was popping back and forth into Joe’s throat.

Maurice knew he wasn’t going to last long but that was didn’t make any difference.  The cum that was building up to shoot out of him had been building for years.  This was his first real gay load.  The load that was building up would shoot him into a new world.  Right or wrong it was going to happen.

Joe could feel the buildup and dove deeper and faster on this red hot pulsing rod.

Then Maurice shot – and shot and shot.  Joe swallowed and swallowed.

Time began to catch up for Maurice.  What had seemed an hour had been only a few minutes and now Maurice was holding on to the tree because his knees could no longer hold him.

Joe rose and wiped his mouth and smiled.  Maurice gave a half smile and weekly said thank you.  Joe smiled bigger and gently kissed Maurice and said “You’re welcome.”

Maurice pulled up his swimsuit and then followed Joe back to the beach.

The moment was over but a new world had opened up for Maurice.  He was now a gay man in a marriage with a woman.  He would never be the same. He was a Late Breaking Gay.


BTW this is my first attempt at writing LBG (Late Breaking Gay) porn.  I would greatly appreciate your comments.

Thursday, February 5, 2015

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I Won't Go Back - Only Forward

 

The family reunion was held in the same small town where my wife and my two children lived thirty years ago.  

One of the things that my kids wanted to do while we were there was to drive by the house that we lived in when they were little.  

I didn't volunteer to take them by the house.  They went to look at the house by themselves.  It wasn't that anything bad happened there.  In fact those were good days.  I guess I just didn't want to go back to those days - I have moved forward and I want to keep moving forward.

As a LBG (Late Breaking Gay) I have made a decision to accept myself.  In the process I have learned to forgive myself for living a lie in the past.  I can not pretend that lying was right and so I can't pretend to my children that I was perfect.   So I won't go back - only forward.  

Friday, February 5, 2010

Mixed Signals

The left turn blinker has been on for the last ten miles.

You have been there - they are going just below the posted speed limit on a curvy two land country road. Driving behind them is infuriating. You just wanted them to do something, anything, just get out of your way. But mile after mile they travel, oblivious to the mixed signals that they are sending to everyone around them.

Being a LBG (late breaking gay) is kind of like that.

You go down the road of life giving mixed signals and you don’t even realize it. When you finally make that long delayed left turn it is a relief for many people who were traveling with you.

For me it was my Mother who said “Duh!”

For my partner it was his kids who said "Duh!"

But it wasn't just me giving mixed signals. Before I came out it seemed like I was getting mixed signals. I enjoyed sex with my wife (maybe I was determined to enjoy it). But I also enjoyed checking out good looking men and later chatting on line with men and then finally playing with men.

In my brain, all of the signals were getting mixed up. Man it is a wonder that
I survived.

It took a long time and I was changing - becoming more and more aware of my interest, even passion for men. But during that transition period it was all mixed signals.

I was flashing my left blinker but just kept on moving straight ahead.

For everyone's sake, including mine, I am glad I finally made that long awaited left turn.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Bisexual?

As I have mentioned, I went through a phase where I thought maybe I was bisexual. I guess technically I was. I was, afterall, having sex with a woman on a "somewhat" regular basis and at the same time wanting to be (and occasionly actualy being) with men. Yes I cheated! I think I will devote a whole different blog to cheating but for now I want to focus on what I was thinking, when I was thinking, that I was bi-sexual.

I did a lot of on-line reaserach during my "bi-curious" phase. Did you know that Alexander the Great, the Macedonian king, is thought to have been bisexual, and to have had a male lover named Hephaestion.

And did you know, also according to Wikeopedian, that Spartans thought that love and erotic relationships between experienced and novice soldiers would solidify combat loyalty and encourage heroic tactics as men vied to impress their lovers? Now they were suppose to leave such things behind and go get married and have kids, but it sounds pretty "bisexual" to me.

Wikeopedia lists more than 150 "famous" people that are or were "bisexual" Amoung them Marlan Brando, Samy Davis Jr, Richard Burton, David Bowe, and Andy Dick (Please!). Thank you Wikeopdea.

It wasn't that easy when I first was searching on the internet. But I found a few refrences that I clung to. I mean, hell if Alexander the great could be bisexual I could be! Right? But I wasn't.

Oh I got it up with my wife. And most of the time it felt good. But now I know it wasn't even close.

Thats what I discovered about me - I love men.

If you are bisexual - more power to you - I just know that I was kidding myself - I love men! I love the sight, smell and touch of a sexy man. I am Gay!

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Coming Out - The Slow Process

I made the decision to come out when I was in my 50's.

OK that is a lie, the decision was kind of made for me - OK I got caught!

Computers are a wonderful thing but you have to be careful. Hello - passwords work really well if you set them up.

Maybe I wanted to get caught. Maybe I didn't have the courage to pull the plug on my old life.

I may not have realized it but I had started my new life.

The internet opened the door of my closet. It wasn't all porn either - actually not much porn. My fascination was chatting with other closeted men on Gay.com. I know that doesn't sound very sexy but I was trying to figure myself out by talking to others that were in the same process. I guess that is the purpose of this blog.

Up to the point where I found other Late Breaking Gays on Gay.com I had felt very isolated. Duh - like I was alone in a closet!

I wasn't even sure I was gay. I kept on thinking: Maybe I was just curious, or bi-curious, or going through a phase.

After all, the insatiable urge for men seemed to come and go in waves. I would indulge myself and then I would be fine for a week or so. Of course that period of "fine" got shorter and shorter over time.

So it couldn't be that I was "GAY". I had to just be "Curious".

But I kept on coming back to one thing: When I would meet a married couple, at church or new neighbors or heaven forbid at the beach on vacation, I would be able to recall every detail about the man and nothing about the woman. Oh and if the man was cute - WOW! I remembered everything about the man. The color of his hair, the way he had it parted, the line of his jaw and OMG the package that he sported. It was like a photograph in my mind. But I couldn't tell you anything about the woman.

It was having that experience over and over again that confirmed for me that I was gay. It was a confirmation that came out the sanest moments of life not just when I was in a horny froth.